Betrayal

It is the deepest betrayal to have a willing spirit trapped in an unwilling body. It makes me so angry. I, who have the spirit of a legion of men, am shackled to a body that is constantly trying to kill me. I gaze around me to inert souls who care not and I want to scream. WHY? Why do I have to be slowed down by a chronic incurable disease???  Dis. Ease. Indeed.  

I am so frustrated in my own impotence to do what I want to do. Is it too much to ask that I can work AND do other things? I am so bone weary. 

I am sure you are waiting for the spiritual insight that will drag this rant into something uplifting and inspiring.  Good luck with that. 

Fine. Here it is. Whatsoever state I am in I have learned to be content. Paul wrote that. 

I have submitted to God in nearly every area but this.  (At least I think so...) I don't want this. I don't. End of story.