Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Not safe for public consumption ...

The title says it all.  My heart and mind have travelled to some dark places the last few months.  I was afraid to post anything because I didn't want to be a stumbling block for someone else.

Surprising notes from my time in Mordor:

I was totally blindsided by grief that I thought I was over.  Grief basically kicked me in the Macgullicuty and laughed about it.  Not cool, Grief, not cool.


I got angry. I mean angry. I had a major throw myself on the floor tantrum. Did I mention I got angry?  It was not pretty.

I once again had to just say, "Fine. Whatever."  God knows what is happening and I don't.  He wins and really I win even though it doesn't feel like a win.

After grudging acceptance came worship and then came peace. Again.

I feel better.

So there you go, months of silence and you get this...

Was it worth the wait ?

I remain,

Marie  the Magnificent

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