I was listening to the news. They were reporting on a vigil for a young man who was killed FOUR years ago, and no one has been arrested in his murder. They wanted to remind everyone that they still wanted justice for him.
Every time I hear a story like that, I say a little prayer of thankfulness that my family did not have to go through that. My sister's murder, awful as it was, at least had immediate closure. By the time we found out she had been killed, we also knew that the person who killed her, had days after her death, killed himself. The police upon entering the house found her in her room, and him in a different room of the house. We were not forced into a lengthy trial. We did not have to see crime scene photos. We did not have to agonize whether the jury would see the truth. As awful, horrifying, swift and terrible as it was, it was over in the same phone call.
As a Christian, I do not want anyone to see hell. It is a tearing away from God. In the final judgement, knowing God, having perfect peace and joy and being ripped away forever. Lake of fire? Horrifying. Separation from God? Unimaginable.
As God showed me, we don't know some one's heart or what happens in those last minutes. I do not believe the person who killed my sister and then killed himself is in heaven. If he is, then by then, I won't care, because in heaven there is no sorrow, no anger, no longing for justice. There is only one thing. Holy. Holy. Holy, is the Lord God Almighty, Who was, Who is, and Who is to come.
Are you in the middle of the whirlwind of whys??? I can't give you answers to those questions, but I CAN tell you that God loves you and wants you to turn to Him. The answer is Jesus. It doesn't matter the question, the answer is Jesus. Sounds very trite, but it is true.
In the darkest days of my pain, all I could do is thank God for loving me and for my salvation, if I could not think of anything else to be thankful for on that day.
Be thankful. Praise Him. Trust Him.
Marie
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