My Own Personal Nineveh

So, I am sitting here, after getting off the phone with my mother.  We had a really nice long chat.  I was filling her in on things that have transpired over the last couple weeks.  Once again, as with most conversations that have taken place in my life over the last 2 months, it circled back to writing.  She gave me some great advice, which basically boiled down to "get off your duff and do it".

Everyone has been telling me to write.  Write. Write!!! WRITE!!!! JUST DO IT!!! Have I done it? No.  Have I thought about it? Yes.  I've thought. I've talked.  The thing I haven't done is written it.

At the church I am attending here in Denver, they are doing a series on Jonah.  Now, yesterday they came and dropped off the book and I haven't read it yet.  However, I was thinking about it, and the Lord said to me that writing was my own personal Nineveh.   Now, Jonah didn't want to go there.  He thought the people weren't worthy of hearing from God.  I do NOT have that problem.  MY problem is that I don't think I AM worthy to do the things that God has asked me to do.  So, I am doing the same thing Jonah did...I am running.  Now, if I break it down to you first grade style, running from God is like an ant running from you.  You are bigger, stronger and faster, and you can see them scurrying this way and that to get away.  We are like that to God.  He just looks and chuckles.  I'm paraphrasing here, but I'm sure He is saying, "Really? That's your play? Running?"  Look, I don't know about you  but God has never started a sentence with me with "verily I say unto you".  Ok. I'm digressing.

So, I have been running.  I have been afraid what will come of what happens when I say to God, "I am all in".

Well, you know what? I AM all in.  I declare that I am all that God has said I am.  I will be who He says I am, and I will DO what He asks me to do, and I won't be dragging my feet about it.  I am getting off my duff.

I have been in the belly of the whale of insecurity and fear, and I am free of it.  I will declare boldly all that God says to me.


I am His instrument and He can use me as He wills.

Your ever declarative and obedient,

Miss M.