Question on my mind today, "Who am I apart from my past?" Ok, that is just a very broad question. I guess what is rolling around inside my head (beside the marbles) is, if I am no longer a caretaker, and no longer the person I was, who am I now?" If you have the answer, you can tell me. I sure don't know what it is. I find it is a journey. Letting go of the past and the old defense mechanisms is freeing and terrifying all at once.
All I know, is that God is surely reshaping my mind and reshaping my spirit. I can feel His fingers combing through my mind and plucking out things that aren't healthy. I am joyful for this, but I will tell you it's like having a major makeover and when the chair turns around, you don't recognize yourself. You know it is you, but it's a you that you never imagined. That is what going on with me right now. I am experiencing growing pains and growth spurts. Remembering to be thankful for them both.
I am totally disjointed today, probably because I have been sick for 8 days. I think the Lupus train has taken over the stomach virus and is trying to run away with my immune system.
Knowing that I am being healed in every way. I will remain your Miss M.
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